Too long.

For far too long I've dwell'd in the shadows, making sure none of you notice me.

No, notice the real me.

For far too long I have had these chains around my neck.

I just wonder.

How can you all do this to me?

No, how can I do this to you?

My friend once said:

"The day you were born, 

someone whispered your name. 

That whisper gave you the very essence of yourself.

Do not waste it."

This is me letting go of myself.

Just know the words I speak are the thoughts I don't think out-loud.

But yet, all I want is someone, some heart, to call my own.

To mend it whenever it feels alone.

For far too long YOU have been in the shadows.

Im afraid.

This morning

I realized

I'm not ready yet.

Shadows.

We all have our Shadows.
The "Dark side" within.

My shadow would be my past.
Everything is good, 'till I do something wrong and it all collapses and the "shadow" claims even this day for itself, thus making it my past.

Thats just how it goes.

I am my own Shadow.
What you see, is what you get.

You just need to look a little deeper.

Maybe, MAYBE if you dig harder, if you try with all your powers,
you may be able to see through my disguise.

Haha, would love to see you try.



You dont know me.



You cant see through me.



I can see you try, before even you do it yourself.



That is my Dark side.

The fact that I'm a bad person.

But that leads us to the Good Side.




I am a master of learning peoples personalities, peoples feelings, people in all.


I can learn, I can read you.
None of you can hide from me.



No one.


Oh the bittersweet feeling I get when I time after time realize, that the more I use my good side
...-It makes me even worse person.


Haha.

P.S

Change me.
I dare you.
Try and change me.

You better run, you better run.

I'm pissed off.
No, I'm angry.
No, Im MAD.


Mad at the world, mad at myself, at my friends.

Why?

Cause nothing never goes as I plan.
Cause people are IDIOTS.
Cause people aren't like me.

Yes, call me selfish, cause thats what I am right now.
But for a good reason.

People tell eachother "Chase and LIVE your dreams."
...
How?

Think honestly. Do you ACTUALLY live your dreams right now?

Do you ACTUALLY have dreams right now?

Maybe get
-Balanced job
-Good, loving wife/husband
-Own House to share with your love
-Couple of kids that call you "Mom" or "Daddy"?

Is THAT your dream?

I refuse.
I wont have that bullshit.

That is not a dream, thats the basics of your future.
Be ambisious. Because you're human.
Be honest. Because you're human.



Songs say "Dont let anyone crush your dreams" or some dumb shit like that.
....
...
Who does that?
Have you ever met anyone who'd be there, preventing you from fulfilling your dreams?
Have you?

No you havent. And you will never meet.

Compassion.
That, is the thing that makes us NOT do that for eachoter. We want to see eachother make it.

So don't listen to anyone who says that bullshit.


One more thing I want to talk about now, since I've been quiet for some time and will be for couple of days.


Its the lie called "unique".

Wake up, idiot.
You.
Are.
Not.
Unique.

If everyone is unique, none of us is.

I dont even accept the term "unique."
YOU ARE NOT UNIQUE AND YOU NEED TO DEAL WITH IT.

You say "My dreams are unique".
Think again.
You say "My life is unique"
Yes, the whole plot, but not everything has happened to someone one day.


No, you are not unique.

I am unique, for I am not.

I refuse to be what the others are.
I am different.
I am different.

I have it all within my grasp if I  want to.

For I am aware of how much I have yet to learn.


So run, run before I awaken.

Run, or wait till I awaken, and try to outrun me.



Run bitch, run.