This time lets have a fun game. Let us pretend we're something we're not.
Lets pretend we're all alright. Lets smile whenever we meet in school or the streets we roam. Lets go home to that oh ever so loving family, asking how your day went?

Well how DID it?

Oh, it was awesome. Just what I needed.  Just what I wanted. I got everything I ever wanted. In a single day. And maybe even more. Maybe I already had it, for ages. Yes, that must be it. I've had my life under control since god knows when! I am more ALIVE THAN EVER. So thank you, whatever gave me this!

No? You don't believe me? Well, lets try another one.

Lets pretend I am more than happy. I'm on the top of my world. Let us say, that nothing could take this feeling from me. Yes.
"I am happy! I swear!" I promise, looking straight into your eyes. Would you smile and nod, agreeing and beginning a story of your own happiness?

Or would we rather stop pretending? Would you rather see through my lies?
And if you would
Would if be before or after I let you see them?
Would you be angry, when you realized it?

How we survive, is what makes us who we are. And thus life as well.
Life is what you make it.
I will make it into a mirror, just to break it. I hate my own reflection. I hate it. It is the manifestation of the other side of me. The other side of us all. The humane inhuman, so to speak. The perfect thing to blame for your own actions. It is part of you. Yes, indeed, there is no other side of the fucking coin. There is only one coin. Too bad if the corners are covered in mud or rust. Mine is burned to crusts fully, and?

Take responsibility for your actions. I will from now on. I am fine now with my weaknesses. If it helps you, then please, do as I do. There may be two sides of you. But it is still you. And you need to learn to control it.

But for heavens sake, take control of your life BUT KEEP IN MIND OF OTHERS. Yes of-mother-fucking-course you need to prioritize yourself over others but don't forget of them. 

And since we're at this, I got still things to say.
Peace of mind. Value it. Harness it.
Try to get as much of it if you can. If you're satisfied right now, then enjoy it. There is a motherfucking storm coming for you. Always is.  But when it comes, just try and survive through it. That is all there is to it. What else can you do? Chase shadows? Chase the reasons? Chase your future and seize it in the process? Well let me tell you something. It is right there. Under your nose. But can you grasp it? No. You cannot. Because you are not alone in this world. Life would be perfect, if it were designed by a single mind. You could see into your future, if you were that mind. But you are not. And that simple fact will take your little tranquility, and shred it to the tiniest of pieces, scatter them into the wind and laugh after.
Then you'll fall. Funny huh?
And as you fall, that small thought in your head will grow. It will leech everything out of you. Your health, your dreams, your mind, your success... Everything. But when its over... Oh yes. Oh yes.

I would give up on my dreams.
My health.
My mind.
My success.
My life.
Not my everything.

No, not my Everything.

Regards:
Everyone you've ever met. Everyone you'll ever meet. And Everyone you'll ever love.

Who would ever want to be king

Do tell me how does this Life work. Do tell me, that I am wrong.
Prove me, that God exists.
Prove me, He does not.

Prove me right, prove me wrong, I win anyways.

But let us speculate, if I am right. If I've always been.
If I really have lived through countless of lives, if I am capable of seeing through the disguise?
If I can see through the very fabric that lingers through your very skin, painting us new faces, new bodies, new eyes even? What if nothing physical remains from our former selves, but the very being that we always will be?

Call it a soul. Call it heart. Call it spirit. Call it person. Whatever one would like to call It, I say that it remains. Through the rifts of world as we depart from one to the another, it remains within us, for it is what ACTUALLY is you.

Mr A meets Mrs B. They fall in love. Their souls bond together and they grow old together, and as Death greets them like a humble servant, what if they are not cast to Heaven or Hell, Damnation or in the Stars, randomly back to Earth...

But after a brief moment, together back to the Earth, so that the Bond only reinforces and they will meet eventually?

Yes, I do believe in one Right person for you. Yes, I do believe that all of my loved ones, have been my loved ones in the past. What if the Stars in the Nightsky, are the Souls whom have died before their loved ones, awaiting for the their time to be cast back upon the ground we stand on?

Yes. I believe indeed that I've found many of my loved ones. And I thank whatever higher power controls this, God or Destiny, for allowing me to find them this quickly.

I am thankful for my weaknesses. I am thankful for my strengths. I am thankful for my loved ones. I am thankful for my enemies. I am thankful, for the course of actions, that has brought me here. The pieces of the puzzle appear to be on the table, but they do not fit in yet. They need time, to be shaped to be perfect, for there is only one kind of perfection.

General perfection, is Life's greatest treason. The one thing, that makes us push further and further, only to fall back. Yes, it is the one thing that cannot be reached, but to be attempted to. The true perfection, that actually does exist, is that which is between two or more, to a maximum, entities. 
Think of two clockwork gears. Even though they might be missing teeth or they might be rusty and whatnot else damage dealt to them, if they are in sync, work only together, they are "made" for each other, don't you agree? Same would go with people. All of their up and bad sides complete one another.

So, the pieces will come eventually together. Whenever the time is right. Until then, I still must bide my time, as I always have, haven't I? But no matter. I have time. I have it all within my grasp. 
I will have this all. I will have my life back. Even if it means giving up my dreams. Giving up my health. Giving up on my mind for the sake. I will have it back. Why?

Because it is the right thing.

Prove me wrong and fail miserably doing it.

I'm waiting.